This is gonna sound really gh3y and emo but over the past 7-10 years, I've found that my life has been becoming increasingly depressing, on top of everything feeling like crap and I've just been stripped of my emotions. Nothing feels fun anymore. I feel like smiling, but in sort of a fake smile kind of way. You know how chimpanzees "smile" by baring their teeth, but instead of it being out of happiness it's out of fear? Well I kinda feel that way but it's more stress than fear.