it pisses me off how much you could hate someone, but that someone can have an impact on your life so great that you feel you can never be able to replace them. i wish things weren't the way they were, i've been robbed of joy for too long; i wish i was oblivious, i liked it better when i was oblivious and incorrect. think of it as finding out santa claus isn't real, but with someone who you used to be really close with.