Life is just not the same without them, I've had plans to actually have one of them move in with me so I could liberate them from their mother's abuse. Every time I try to get my mind off of them, I just end up missing them both even more. The lack of genuine communication was ultimately what lead to the downfall of everything about our relationship, but I feel like I could've prevented what happened in January if I had just kept my mouth shut. I wish I could fix things, but everything is far beyond repair now and it fucking sucks, I fucking suck and I need to let go, I'll never get those memories back and it's my fault. I've hurt myself and others, and I deserve to be hurt.
Meuny
Honestly... You are almost as broken as I am...
I kinda get when people seem to want to go back and fix a broken relationship but sometimes it is way better to just let all go.
Sometimes I wish I has just kept my mouth shut, too. Maybe I wouldn't be so unrepairable nowadays.
You do not deserve do be punished; punishment is only used for satisfaction - a completely perfomatic debt repayment par excellence.
It's not going to solve your problems, it just serves to relieve you of some of the burden on your conscience that you may have.
I wish you the best of luck on your recovery.
Florisgrad
thakn you :'3